SOME TIMES I'M JUST

Tired...

Can I be real for a second? Some times I'm just tired. Of being tired. And I want to come on here and write about my "perfect life" and encourage you all to keep going, but some times I'm tired.

On days like those I usually turn to my journal instead of my blog. I may spend a few minutes scribbling in anger or exhaustion and the next time you see me or read my words, everything is just "PERFECT." Let me be real everybody. Are you listening?

MY LIFE IS NOT PERFECT.

And it get's so tiring trying to front like it is. I started this blog, initially, to encourage other people. But lately I've been thinking, "How can I do that if I'm not even being 100%?" My readers are my family. You all are my family, and I want to share my journey with you. Not just the pretty parts.

When you put yourself out there for the public there's a lot of discernment to learn. I'm constantly asking myself what I should or shouldn't post. How much of my life should I divulge.

IT GETS HARD.

So if I'm going to do this, I need your support. I want to share. I want to help. I want to be the sister you can turn to, to make your day better or verify that you're not alone in this world, but I need that too.

I need sisters and brothers who ALLOW me to share, without judgement. Who are in my corner whenever I need to vent.

Can I have that? Can you be that for me?

Some times I'm just tired. And I just want to vent. So here I am typing my frustration. I may have a bad day or week. Don't we all?

Writing is my breath. I breathe Poetry. This is where I exhale. I don't want to hold my breath anymore.

This post was all over the place but some times, that is exactly what I need. I hope you continue to ride with me and allow me to share.

I'll chat with you soon :)
~Naturallykbiggie