This Summer I Learned How To Love Myself

"In April, I learned how to let go of dying roses.
Learned that weeds are often disguised as masterpieces.
Learned that some thorns never allowed me to water my
own garden.

In May, I learned rock bottom.
Learned that you must reach the deepest soil in order to
plant new trees.
I learned pursuing + patience.

In June, I learned how to pick myself up.
How to kiss my own bruises.
Learned how to mirror counsel my shards into
staccato stained glass.

In July, I learned how to dance.
How to become a symphony for my own glory.
I learned how to celebrate the Magic I am.

It is August, and I have learned to love myself.
Whispered poems, sang songs, and two stepped in the rain.
I learned where my heart flutters.
I have cocoon blossomed into a red lacewing butterfly.

The summer I learned how to break past barriers,
Dance to the edge of a cliff,
And FLY."

-Naturallykbiggie, Relearning Summer Love

THIS WAS THE GREATEST SUMMER OF MY ENTIRE LIFE BECAUSE I LEARNED THE MOST IMPORTANT LESSON: SELF LOVE.

I had no idea this summer would have so much personal growth in store. In all honesty, I was dreading this summer. To be completely transparent, I had just gotten out of a year long relationship. And although, there were no foul feelings in our parting, I realized that I was growing stagnant. I was not putting myself first. Everything was "we, We, WE" and I saw myself suffering from that.

So we split, and I was heartbroken.
And on my journey to healing, I have learned what was missing.
RADICAL SELF LOVE.

This summer I learned to love myself.
I started off faking, claiming phrases like "black girl magic" and "self exploration." Let me tell you something. I faked it until I made it. I spent mornings in the mirror, proclaiming that I am worthy of love.
What I didn't realize was, that love had to come from me first.
What I didn't realize was that I am my greatest treasure.
I didn't realize my magic.

And now I am sitting here crying, typing this message to ALL of the black girls who read my blog, begging you to find yourself. Find out what you love. Find out who you are. Be fearless in your pursuit of yourself. Last night, I sat in my bed, overwhelmed + crying at my Black Girl Magic. I want everyone to know this feeling. It is better than all the dates, and kisses, and anniversaries. To love yourself, radically. To proclaim that love, shamelessly. And to radiate that love, magically.
I have no words to describe it.
I cannot write enough poems.
Sing enough songs.
All I can do is continue to bask in my glory.

If you never take anything else away from my blog, I want you to take this and keep it in your front pocket for the days when the world is too heavy, for heartbreak, for failed dreams, for all the pain:
YOU ARE MAGIC. Find yourself. And never, ever stop falling in love.

This summer I learned how to love myself.
I am praying you do too.

Stay Happy, Stay Healthy.
~Naturallykbiggie